Marcel the Shell With Shoes On

I just found my new favorite thing. I actually found this from the Tosh.0 blog but it's not exactly Tosh.0-ish at all! It's adorable, hilarious, and has a hint of Debbie Downer. Instant winning formula there. Watch :)

MARCEL THE SHELL WITH SHOES ON from Dean Fleischer-Camp on Vimeo.

Nurse Nat wants out!

Because we don't know when we will die, we get to think of life as an inexhaustible well. And yet everything happens only a certain number of times, and a very small number really. How many more times will you remember a certain afternoon of your childhood, an afternoon that is so deeply a part of your being that you can't even conceive of your life without it? Perhaps four, or five times more? Perhaps not even that. How many more times will you watch the full moon rise? Perhaps twenty. And yet it all seems limitless...

-Quote from The Sheltering Sky on Brandon Lee's tombstone...
Sad, but beautiful.

Welp, NCLEX passed! Next: find a (preferably) good job. Hopefully before that happens (life starting and whatnot) there will be some sort of get away? Yeah right... On the bright side, the fact that 4 years of weight on my shoulders has been lifted is kinda like a vacation in itself...? :(

I'm apprehensive and nervous but kinda excited for this next chapter. I hope it will be good... I don't know, though :\

Grandma's Kimono

This was taken on my phone at 1 AM with my mom and little brother playing directors (like the little lamp Anson placed by my feet? haha). I'll have to remember to bring my real camera home next time and get some pictures with my grandma if she'll let me.

My grandma gave me her kimono that she wore when she married my grandpa. She even wore it while she came over here from Japan on the boat... at my age. That was the only time she wore it. Her older brother (her favorite) gave it to her before he died. None of us knew she had this kimono. My grandparents have very few possessions and we have seen all of them -- so we thought.

I am honored and touched. It would take a long time for me to explain my grandma; she has gone through so much in her life yet is the sweetest woman in the entire world. Unfortunately her health isn't very good right now and I hope I can spend as much time as I can with her. Her dementia is getting worse but she still remembers her family. She is just a lot happier and outgoing than she used to be. We hug now, big long hugs. She even kissed me on the cheek once which old grandma never would've done. Also feeding our dog with her fork. She used to be a germ/clean freak!


When I helped her into the car, she said that I have to wear her kimono at next year's Bon Odori while my mom wears the beautiful jacket piece that goes on the outside (because she says that is for the old ladies...). She said my brother and I will stand in the front with my mom behind us and she will watch from the crowd. I hope she can make it to next year's Bon dance.

1939-1943

I just stumbled upon this awesome website that has photos from the Depression era... IN COLOR! Sometimes I (for some reason) imagine the past in black and white or sepia-tone so it was awesome to find these photos. Enjoy!

dancey dance dance

Before I get into anything, this is the coolest link ever for the travel seekers. It let's you explore how much it costs to go anywhere in the world at a specified time if you have one, or based on activities/temperatures you want. So awesome! Anyway...

Nothin like a little hip hop and Thai kee mao noodles to make everything better! Bessie, you my girl.
Tonight we attempted to burn up the floor at our first hip hop class. We learned a little somethin to go with Halo by Beyonce. It was a nice intro class... Need to learn how to hit harder and ditch my classical training. Kinda did it with African dance but for some reason this seems like it will be harder! Why are dance classes so expensive?? I want to try so many more styles and maybe choose something to pursue, time and money permitting. It makes me happy. At least this one we are registered for is a little better price-wise as I wait to find a source of income.

Some areas of difficulty in finding that source of income:

• Must have 2 years experience
• Must have had senior practicum in ICU or ER.
• Must have blahblahblah
• EXPERIENCED RN'S ONLY
• This position is not considering new grads
  
• Residency program starts in August
• Residency programs start in February...
  
• 300+ people applied already
• NCLEX still pending
  

Shoot :\
Recruiters, I swear I'll be good at what I do! How to prove it on paper against hundreds of others? Hmmm...

Even looking elsewhere like in San Francisco, New York, and Hawaii (yeah... even looked in hawaii ) have limited hits! I keep joking that I might need to move to Alaska but maybe it's not a joke. Or else I'm pretty damn sure suburbs would definitely work...

Federal Way here I come, right back where I started from! Federal Wayyyyy! Here I come!
.......... :(

Patron Saint of the Totally F***ed! (Lou from Hot Tub Time Machine)

Mind dump:

Wowee, you know that final straw? That LAST one that just does you in (even if it's not actually that biguva deal in the grand scheme of things but it's the cherry on top of your totally fucked ice cream sundae)? I think I hit that today... now I'm left with an awful headache. Plus how I will probably need to push my test date back a day or two as a result. NoooOoOooOOOooo!!!

On the bright side, I learned burning sage really does help (at least made me feel better)! I burned some to ward off bad luck and to cleanse myself. It smelled like weed... :\

To sum it up, this lost soul o' mine lacks any direction which has been a shitty feeling. Oh well, there definitely have been gems. Diamonds in the rough, if you will. I really enjoyed a few things today like being with my dear friend Andrew, early morning pho, seeing my mama (she bought me my favorite foods as I prep for NCLEX which really meant a lot to me), playing with Beau on the rug I kinda bought for him, having my grandparents over, catching up on the phone with friends I miss so so so dearly...

It's sad that even more best friends are leaving soon. Boned!

Luckily there was an awesome music video released today that I've been waiting for all summer which should be checked out if you like pop music, dancing, laughing, and asians:


Today we had to make a list of 5 things that would make up our perfect day in our street's block party. Mine? 1. Snowboard at Whistler, 2. Jetski anywhere, 3. Play with my dog, 4. Hang out with Barack Obama [I need someone to inspire me -- who better?], 5. Be with friends and family and dance like Michael Jackson. I felt the list was pretty representative of my (impossibly) ideal day :)

If only!