As Czarina would say, "Need some cheese to go with your WHINE??" ごめんなさい (I'm sorry).
I've usually been good at rolling with the punches in life but I guess a month+ of punches (extending beyond NCLEX BS) did me in. I'm sorry for being a sourpuss. I just felt trapped and frustrated beyond belief. I guess AUGUST 11TH (oh my gosh a real date) isn't that far off from my "ideal" summer schedule I made, but it is crossing over the line of when Dr. V said people would start statistically failing... and over the line of finding a job. Everything happens for a reason.
Mama always said life throws curveballs and you gotta roll with the punches. She's right... I'm a big girl. Mantra: ROLL WITH THE PUNCHES. How many times can I say that in one post?
Yesterday Micaela, Rachel, Jimmy, and I went on a hike to Denny Creek waterfalls/granite water slides. It was great being in nature. As we were walking I finally had time to think in fresh air with no books or computers around. I was trying to name as many things that I'm thankful for as I could. It was nice.
Most of all from that list, I'm thankful to be alive and in good health AND that my loved ones are alive and kicking as well. What more could I ask for? Reality, check yo-self before you wreck yo-self.
Graduation came and went so quickly. Was officially pinned at our nursing school graduation. We danced, laughed, cried, and celebrated together. I can't believe nursing school is over.... well, actually it doesn't really feel that way since NCLEX is coming up. I hope... there has been drama with the Department of Health and I am just trying to be patient. Anyway.
For Father's Day weekend I went to San Jose to visit my Dad's side of the family. It was awesome seeing cousins all grown up and the changes that have happened since last time I was down. It's been a really long time... The best part was seeing my 2.5 year old niece. I want to keep her! She can talk and loves to sing "Hey Soul Sister" - the song has been redeemed.
My grad gift to myself was to get a longboard (skateboard) which has been a blast. Rachel, Jimmy, Czarina, and I have formed a gang. I hope to go more soon -- it's kind of like therapy. It will do since snowboarding isn't possible right now. It being cheaper than $60 lift tickets is also a plus :)
I have very little interest in the stuff i SHOULD be studying. My only motivation is to pass it the first time but without a date set I am having trouble staying focused. I'm afraid of getting burned out if my test ends up being really deep into August or something.
Instead, my interest lies in learning Japanese... and guitar, but mostly Japanese now. I have always had a bit of an identity crisis since I don't know either of my languages and my family doesn't really partake in much cultural stuff (besides yummy food). My Japanese side is pretty "Ameicanized". I am 4th generation. I don't want the traditions to die out completely and feel like I might be the only one close to even learning our language. It's been fun studying it :) In high school it was a chore, but now without the pressure of grades and speaking in front of my class it is something that I really want to do. Then -- SPANISH. Oh boy.
OK: now something cool. There are a bunch of Asian-American youtube musicians, comedians, bloggers, etc. I subscribe to and this group called Wong Fu Productions always makes awesome videos. This short movie When Five Fell is really great so if you have 10 minutes to watch it I encourage it. From the description:
Can the things we love, love us back just the same? Five household objects express their feelings toward their owner when she begins to neglect them for someone else. "When Five Fell" is a new take on the ideal boy-meets-girl love story. Although the short is told from a unique and unconventional perspective, the emotions described should be familiar to anyone that's fallen in or out of a relationship.
We delight in the promise of falling for love. We crumble in the dread of falling from love. Everyone falls. Everything falls.
